Although it had been a year or so since I was last in New York, Begin Again brought back so many electrifying images in my head. There is a strange sense of familiarity when I was watching the movie. Brooklyn, Washington Square, Central Park, China Town, EMPIRE STATE BUILDING AND TIME SQUARE!
I know I know, it makes me sound like a pathetic small town girl, overwhelmed by the flickering lights of Time Square, but the truth is, tall modern buildings and urban skylines are not foreign to me. Being born and raised in an international city (Hong Kong.), I’m not new to fast-paced urban lives. But to me, having been to New York twice for a substantial time, it has occupied a special place in my heart, as the one and only metropolitan.
There is something about it that you can’t find elsewhere, Tokyo, Paris, Seoul, Manila, HONG KONG… no, New York is special. It is lined with gold and glittering light bulbs. It is rough and delicate. It is rugged and posh. It is violent yet elegant. It is imperfect but complete. It smells awful but the air is intoxicating. It is the home of hobos and jobless people; and the land of promises, of dreams coming true. As if New York itself is a rusted paradox.
I loved every bits of its uncivilized subway, even the human poop (don’t ask why I knew it wasn’t dog shit) in it. I loved walking on the streets of Manhattan all by myself, slightly frozen yet still striding forward. And that all I had was just me and my music and my solitude. I miss that feeling of having a free heart and open mind; fearless and hopeful.
To anyone who has ever been lonely in a city
a) some things are meant to be kept between yourself; things that only you would understand and appreciate. Things that you should never stop doing.
b) being with someone doesn’t mean you won’t feel lonely anymore and that’s perfectly fine.
c) everyone needs their own purpose in life.
d) in case of depression, just keep walking.
Because a city as big is capable of containing your insignificant sorrows. Let the darkness absorb all your troubles and surrender to the chaos of urban lives.
And back to the movie, I enjoyed the soothing music, Kiera’s fashion style and the fact that the male and female leads had pure friendship. The movie was about second chances, something that I am learning in the hardest way possible. Of course it was about Adam Levine’s singing too 😉
Simply put, watching this movie alone in a row of seats in the cinema all to myself at 9:30 am before work, is one of the best decisions I have made lately.
p.s. I wonder if new yorkers ACTUALLY realize how lucky they are to be living in such a gorgeous city.